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Tues(16/8)




There's always that one person, no matter how long it's been, or how badly they've treated you,if they say 'i love you',you will say it back ..

McFly - Point of view

Wed ( 2/8 )

I'm Getting tired of asking,

This is the final time,

So did I make you happy?

Because you cried an ocean,

When there's a thousand lines,

About the way you smile,

Written in my mind,

But every single word's a lie.

I never wanted everything to end this way,

But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey.

I swore to you that I would do my best to change,

But you said it don't matter,

I'm looking at you from another point of view,

I don't know how the hell I fell in love with you,

I'd never wish for anyone to feel the way I do.

Is this a sign from Heaven,

Showing me the light?

Was this supposed to happen?

I'm better off without you,

So you can leave tonight,

'N don't you dare come back and try to make things right,

'Cause I'll be ready for a fight

siapa belum dgr gi google pat , tedap :P

:'(

Sun ( 31/7 )


mood : EXTREMELY DEPRESSED
have u ever got the feeling when u're sad and need a shoulder to cry on, but u can't have them because they're not yours ? i'm having it right now . i can find u but i can't reach u . and time ni lah ada satu nasihat yg slalu terngiang2 which is : sebodoh bodoh org ialah org yg biarkan dirinya diperbodohkan . nasihat ni special for me. haihh. i don't know what i'm talking about. 


nak jd HULK jap , and go get everything that i want.

Kakai :')

Thurs ( 28/7 )

bila dah tua ni, teringat la cerita2 masa kecik.Kwn baik saya yg pertama ialah kakai. Mse umur 5@6 thun. Die bangsa cina, die satu2 kwn saya mse tu sbb die jiran saya. Mslh utama adalah KOMUNIKASI. Dia ta pernah nak ckp bhs melayu dgn saya. Mula2 satu bnde pun ta phm, tapi lama2, lgpun tadika byk mmbantu, saya pun dpt la phm apa yg die ckp. Kat rumah dia ada dua ekor anjing , satu kecik, satu lg besar nk mam =..= mmg saya takut gile ngan anjing tu sbb die suka nyalak2 n leset kat badan org. tp kakai selalu buat ta endah je, slalu die masuk trus dlm umah and tinggalkan saya terkial kial kat luar rumah. Lps 2 minit baru die kluar pahtu jerit ,” tha pu yau ni de! “ – not sure bout the spelling- lyn je. Haha. (mksd- dia ta nak awak punye).Pahtu die bgi saya 2 keping cheese . muke saya cam org kebulur kot. Ta sempat nak makan, mak die dah bebel. Mak dia ckp , “ ini gila pny budak mkn byk2” . skrg bru saya faham, cheese kan mahal, pahtu kakai bgi plak sorang 2. Mcmna la mak dia tak menyinga.

Kat tadika, kiteorg ta sama kelas. Dia kelas ape pun saya ta tahu. Kat sini, saya rasa, cikgu tadika nilah yg paling grg. Setiap kali dapat homework , kene hantar by hand , siapa yg salah buat, terpaksa la jd santapan rotan yg mempunyai diameter semcm duit syiling 50sen. Dgn uniform tadika yg mcm pkai mini skirt, mmg sedap la kena rotan -..-'' . lagi satu yg saya ta leh lupa, mknn kat situ. Yg paling sdp hingga menjilat meja adalah bubur ayam die. Not sure lah ayam ke, vavi ke .. seyes, im not sure. Tapi mmg SEDAP. Setiap kali waktu rehat, mknn yg paling saya nnti2kan adalah bubur dia. Nyummy! Before bubur tu kluar, mesti bau die dah mencekik hidung saya. Rasa lapar pun terpekik terlolong. Lagi satu mknn adalah biskut bulat kecik2, dan masa sekolah rendah bru saya tahu yg biskut tu actually tak halal. erkk.

Berbalik kpd Kakai , keluarga dia ni pelik. Mak garang menyinga , ayah pulak alcoholic tingkat tinggi. Kesian. Selalu jugak bpk dia bwk saya mkn luar. Tp saya ta brani la join mkn sekali. Sekadar duduk main2 pijak kaki dgn Kakai je. Tapi, malangnye lepas bpk dia kena belasah dgn samseng smpai kepala berdarah, bpk dia jadi kurang siuman@gila. Dia terpaksa masuk hospital gila. Hmm. Ta lame lps tu, Kakai dan mak dia pun pindah blk kampung. Tak salah saya , kampung dia kat Pontian. Pernah dulu saya pikir, saya nak pergi pontian n pergi rumah Kakai sbb rindu nak gaduh dgn dia. Haha. Silly. *sigh :’) 

Until now, im wondering , where is he now. Hidup ke dh ta bernafas ke. Belajar kat mana. Nama sebenar dia apa. Ada Fb ke ta. Dia ta pernah nak blk Johor Jaya ke. Tsk tsk.

He is my first best friend , walaupun komunikasi K.O. , tp kiteorg ttp blh jd kawan baik. And I wonder, die still lari tak bile tgk bulan. Huhu. Die igt bulan tu kejar dia. Haha. Budak kecik en. Miss my friend :’)

wo xiang ni 

McFly and Busted

Why do you build me up 

Buttercup baby just to 

let me down 

And mess me around 

And then worst of all 

You never call baby 

When you say you will  

But I love you still 

I need you 

More than anyone darlin' 

You know that I have from the start 

So build me up 

Buttercup 

Don't break my heart 

I'll be over at ten 

You tell me time and again 

But you're late 

I wait around and then 

I went to the door 

I can't take any more 

It's not you 

You let me down again 

Baby Baby 

Try to find a little time 

And I'll make you happy 

I'll be home 

I'll be waiting beside the phone 

Waiting for you. 

Why do you build me up.... 

To you I'm a toy 

But I could be the girl

You adore 

If you'd just let me know 

Although you're untrue 

I'm attracted to you 

All the more 

Why do I need you so Baby Baby.....

ooh ooh ooh 

Why do build me up .....

such a SWEET song 

McFly

Sat(23/7)

Currently in LOVE with MCFLY . semua lagu dia best , ta mcm lagu skrg yg hanya repeatition of fews words with a lot of beats. kalau kawan2 nak dgr MUZIK sebenar , try McFly . start with That girl ngan I'll be ok ngan Room on 3rd floor .this is where true music speaks. hehe 

*sigh

Thurs(22/7)


so much problems lately nih. this UPU thingy is giving me a very hard time. i slept more than before sbb stres. hurgh. what a shame. struggle gila babs kat matrks, tp ini yg UPU bgi . haihh. byk sgt dosa kot saya ni. huhu. tak pernah rasa down mcmni. pffftt , bosan tul . and time ni , TIME NI LAH , old memories semua berebut2 datang dlm kepala otak ni,. really regret my stupid decisions back then. dunno what's going through my mind at that time. REGRET IT . huhh. now, i'm just questioning myself for my mistakes. thanks to YOU , yes YOU for making my life miserable & pathetic & dull & numb .


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